Tuesday, March 31, 2009

qwerty

I Thought of more things I unintentionally say because my parents say them. 
The other day I told someone I'd "yetch" at something. My mom says that. She says "yetch" and "yarf" and "yuck up" or just "yuck" instead of barf or throw up or hurl. 

Just thinkin. I'm at the work-study office. I'm really bored. I was writing random words on a piece of paper, looking at my handwriting and I had an epiphany about the letter s. when you write a really sloppy word and you have a really sloppy s, it starts to take the shape of the cursive s. same with R. a really sloppy uppercase R looks kind of like a cursive lowercase r. I thought, gasp, I figured out why those letters look so weird in cursive! Epiphany! 

Yes. that's how bored I am. It's kind of like the whole apple-macintosh epiphany I had in the cafeteria.... I apparently enjoy having stupid epiphanies about things people realized light years before I did.

I also found the most sexist romantic novel in the universe. I felt like a total douche reading this book, which was obviously a romantic novel, with a cheesy illustration on the cover and everything, and underlining things and really, really studying it. I only did that because I am planning on using it for a project. Yes, accidental feminism, whatever. I will post passages from it later when I get back to my apartment. It really was appalling, I thought that maybe since it was pretty outrageous that it was a piece of feminist literature making fun of chauvinistic men, but I looked it up online and apparently this author is just a legit romantic novel writer, and that book got some kind of reviewer's choice award. And I said, What The Fuck is wrong with some women. Really. You'd think it was impossible, or at least counter-intuitive to be a chauvinistic pig to women if you are a woman. But people continue to amaze us. And I don't ever do the feminist-tirade thing but even I felt the need. 

That leads me to another thing. I heard someone the other day say "society tells girls to be skinny." And I thought, Society told them? Who exactly is this society? How do they make people do things? And why do they have such a huge say in what everyone does? It's something that people say when they want to have something to say for class, or they want to make gross generalizations or make a stupid, lazy assessment about why women feel pressured to be skinny in today's society. You inhabit a society, it doesn't tell you to do things. That's something that bothers me for some reason, because it just makes people sound stupid when they say it and it makes them sound like one of those 'rebel without a cause' people who are like rebel against society!!!!! Annoying. I don't want to be cynical or pessimistic, but if you're rebelling against "society" then you're only feeding into the idea of society and really, instead of separating yourself from it you're only making yourself a subcategory of it. like "The Malcontents" or "The Misanthropes." 

whatever. my brain is wanderingg and this will be the longest post ever. Thank you workstudy. There was a protest against Westboro Baptist Church yesterday at Towson, because apparently Towson High is faggot-infested and they need to repent or something. I didn't go, because I am lazy. Same with the protest against prop. 8 a while back. I'm a terrible queer. The Gay agenda would be disappointed. 

Monday, March 30, 2009

haha.















haha, Old RISD pictures.  yey, nostalgia. 

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

shat

I rented a tablet from AV today cause I wanted to screw around with it. Here is my first tablet-illustrator inspired art thing! 





People always think I'm lighter than I really am. I guess I'm flattered, but it's weird. I tell them I'm 150-155 pounds and a size 11 pants and they always get this funny look on their face and go "nooo." and I'm like yeessss.. do I need to take off my pants to prove it to you? I've had a lot of people say that... more than enough to make it a pattern. 


funny. I guess I look lighter than I am? that's a good thing. I'm  pretty normal weight.. I could always weigh less but so could everyone in their minds. It's never my weight that I freak out about, but rather what my body shape is. Cause weight doesn't really mean anything if you look good.. unless you're a runway model I guess. I would be the biggest fatty Mcfatterson in that case. But thankfully I'm not! 

my brain is all over the place!


 
There's meeee!

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

Bad News Bears.

I am so exhausted. Last night (this morning) I only got less than an hour of sleep. I couldn't go all the way, I had to pass out for a little bit. Speaking of pass out, right now I feel like I'm about to from exhaustion. 

It was totally worth it though.

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

Deep as a graveyard, wide as TV.

I am obsessed with the song 15 by Rilo Kiley.
and also Love You Madly by CAKE.
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaand Amazing. By Kanye. Ft. Young Jeezy.

There is no rhyme or reason behind it, I just heard it yesterday in like, the perfect mood and context for it, and now I'm in love with it. Funny cause I usually hate most "indie" bands. But I guess Rilo Kiley can be an exception.

Funny how the context of a song can make it feel a certain way for you when you listen to it and you can't really escape it. Like when I hear Where Is My Mind by the pixies my face goes all red-like and I start grinning. And my roommates look at me like... Wut?

Thursday, March 5, 2009

What

Thought I would find a place for these gems of pictures I found on my computer. 










hahaha. My parents wouldn't let me wear that shirt out in 7th and 8th grade and I was soo mad. Now I thank them for it... funny how that is.


Becoming Insane





Hahaha at this. Little itty bitty sixth graders. Look at us in our little clairbourn skorts. 


Wednesday, March 4, 2009

Nom

Nom Nom Nom Nom Nom..... 

I AM THE INCREDIBLE HULK!... hulkess... or Amanda is at least. 


Tuesday, March 3, 2009

Home Grown

I have no fancy words really. I'm terrible with words and I never know what to say. 




My chest is tight, 
my body aches, 
I'm exhausted 
    and extremely extremely happy. 
     I've been going to class and hanging out with my friends but my mind is completely somewhere else.